wah wah wah

tomorrow is the first day of school holidays
n tomorrow is the spm result...
hhmm..
i think about it..
next year is our turn..
well..
i really want to study 2morrow.
since i dun do anything
or today i start the history presentation..
hehehe.. too 'rajin'
well..
things happens these days...
complicating my feelings...
i mean now...
well........................
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T-T
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^_^
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hmm..

i dunno
where
to start
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>o<

okie..
this complication of feelings begins
when...muh peeps celebrate my b'day at the pizza hut last friday..
aiyoo~
i dunno why...
they left me alone n mr d.
juz act like normall n talk like normal stuff..
then we ate..
the pizza (duh)
there was maa, qiqi, anis, mimi, syikin, jimmy, n him.
hmhm.
well, syikin said..
'jom suap beramai2!'
which her attention was the gurls suap-ing me..
suddenly, something unexpected happen.
mr d suap me~!
syikin said i was blushed
of course!
this thing nvr happened before in my life!
well, i did suap my cousin.. BUT THAT'S MY COUSIN! LOL
okie.. back to the story..
hmhm.
okie.. mr d suap me... mushroom soup.. 3 times~!
u wanna know why... becoz they want to take pictures of it..
aiyoo~
my face... kinda felt warm... coz the blood rushed up to my face..
hmm..
then. try to act normal.. but cant.. yeah..
after that day..
i just cant forget the event happening that day~
is he just fooling around.. or is he really serious about it?
well, i kept on saying to myself..
just dun like this guy... coz.. mayb he wont like u back..
plus we've just met!
so... dun put any hope on him.
well, after i clash with my ex, fah chan.
its really hard for me to like a guy..
soo, when i like a guy..
i would be serious bout it..
hhmmmm....
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another thing about me..
im a person who waits the guy to make the first move..
i just wait...
i dun care.. how long does it takes..
just keep it to myself n wait.
well... it's kinda suffer..
but i just cant say..
atashi [dot dot dot] no daisuki desu!
no way...
in this case.. im a shy person...
hating of rejection.
that's why.
well....
enough lah...
i felt like i wanna cry..