♥ Lovely

Friday, October 23, 2009 ♥ 9:37 PM

u just wondering whats gonna happen next?

of coz u dunno.

n things happened to fast.

as u grow up. simply things cn be complicated. or is it only me make it complicated?

this is wat we call EGO~

im a normal human being.

okieh. to tell u the truth. its hard for me to say IM SORRY in person..

but deep inside me i know i feel guilty.

i let the past go... and make like nothing happens..

i dunno my behaviour will make people sad.

if i continue doing this.... people will hate me.

lucky i have frens dat cn tell wat's wrong with me. at least it makes me realized.

but i know later i eventually forgot.

n some stuff i did... dat makes people awkward. im sorry dear.

i've change ever since i've meet him.

is it him to be blame? is it becoz of him i've change.

i wish i could do sumthing to change it.

♥ 7:01 PM

Love is all lies.

I don’t want to hurt anymore.

I don’t want to believe in love anymore.

I hate myself being like this… im trying to forget about him. Its been almost 6 months apart.

I don’t even seen him ever since the break up. But why I still remember him?

Why? And somehow….. I dunno if I can open my heart to someone else. Im so give up about everything. I know im still young or whatever. Mayb… if only… I can make him.. open his eyes. n show it him.. who I am now.

Shit man..

Study lah wei.. >o<

Y I have to think about this stuff?

I dun want to cry just becoz of him. I would be stupidest GIRL ever! >o<

I notice this happened when….. im become a different person whenever im infront of guys..

Kkhhh~

I wish that I don’t grow up! When you’ve become a little bit older, you tend to think more than it supposes to be. Gendut tul..

Nk jd budak kechik forever…. But that also… is not that fun.

Huhu..

But at least the thinking part is lesser and plus!!! U can only think.. play n play n play. =D

And again, im different when im infront of guys..

Blah lah cik Puteri Emilia Fazrin bt Mohd Nasir.

I just don’t want them to think im a boring person… becoz I know im not!! Huhu… really?

Mama, I just need some attention from someone…. Gyabooo~ (U.U)’’’

Little kitty lost some part of her heart.. bring back to me ASAP~~

Bodoh nyer bdk ! I hate you!!! >o<

Humph. I need a hug.

Saturday, October 17, 2009 ♥ 12:00 PM

hey minna san! ^^

how's ur day ?

huhu

just notice dat a few of my frens change their url.

kkkhh~ new era of life perhaps?=P

well, im kinda...like this name... LOVELIME.

huhu...

reasons that i dun want to change the name:

i dunno wat name to replace.
i've used this name since this page first made.
brings back the memories when i was in secondary skool together with mimi, maa and anis.

well, somehow.... how can i came out the idea of LOVELIME?

actually, its not becoz i like lime... cyesly.... there's no relation with the lime k?

well you know when u terbalik kn your name... for example...

ali = ila.

sumthing like..

so.. dat time.... mimi, me, anis and maa.

we play dat game..

calling people's name backwards.

like mine

PUTERI EMILIA FAZRIN

IRETUP AILIME NIRZAF

i took the AILIME.

AI in japanese meaning love.

so there goes the LOVELIME.

hahaha..

dats why i dun want to change the url tho..

it brings me memories during my skools days..

dat i really want to go back..

anis! maa! mimi! i miss you guys so much....

T^T

bler nk jumpe lagi ni?

ermm..

now im listening to andrea brocelli... L'Appuntamento.

okie.. i dunno the meaning...

damn.. so relaxing.... just makes me feel like im in paris....

kyaa!

i know dat my honeymoon well be at paris!!

>o<

XDD

okie im too young to think about all dis..

huhu..

alrite den peeps..

me off!

chow.

Labels: life

Friday, October 16, 2009 ♥ 3:53 PM

hello bebeh!
minna san! ogenki desu ka?
okie guys.. i know i DO NOT UPDATE the blog... for quite some time...
XD
owh well. despite with my lazyness.. i just cannot do anything.
since the broadband is so...... slow..
university life...
okie.. let me bebel from the beginning.
i was exiceted to enter UITM. since my "boyfren"is in the same university...
mayb we can meet each other often... so many things i wanted to do.
but too bad... a couple of weeks after orentation week. we clashed.
reason: he just to lazy to think about relantionship. way too much to think.

cant blame him coz he's in architecture course.. the havoc is like crazy.
same goes to the person. ahaks.
XD

of course i was down.. becoz... i love him?? i dunno bout dat... hahaha....
i felt like im stupid.. to just... LOVE him.. but.. forgive n forget..
dats me..
IM SINGLE! huurrayy! XD

becoz of this... i tend to cut my hair... SHORT. like AMBER from F(X)
there's also another story behind the cut.
XDD

okie.. one fact about me.... everytime i want to forget something..... like hurting me or sumthing....
i cut my hair... eventho my hair isn't dat long.... XD my longest hair was until my elbow.... dat was like during my matrix days...
everytime i look at the picture.... kkhhh~ i want dat hair back.....
hahaha..

neways....
after i cut my hair, suddenly i got the attention that i nvr had b4.
u know like.. bleh berkenalan?
bla bla bla..
during my high skool days...
people dun even know me!
well.. except a few... someone dat i know..
hahaha
XD
well, ever since i entered UITM, khhhhhhh~ i've become uncomfy actually... with this kind of...... treatment...
hahahhaha.. but sumone who knows me... i would "wat dunno je"
totally in my own world...
until some people call me "sombong".
i cant help myself being like dat...
hahaha.. but when u know me more... den u know who am i really r. XD

okieh.. let me see.. bout my classmate... they all so cool.... im so greatful dat i've meet dem... at least im not the only one who is "gile-gile"
n guess what.... the gurl in my class.. 99% like SUJU~ a.k.a kpop.
hahahahaha....
me sho happy!
its been a while.. since i've in such a crowed.
meera,nadia,shaq,aizzah..... they so cool..
im greatful of dat...
=D
well, i've met meera and kak amy 1st....
at first, i think meera.. is one of... u know.. that kind of gurls...
but it was total FALSE!

=D

okie okie..
later i will tell the details.. ( in a hurry... ) hahahahha...

well... overall... my life is gud...
no hal lah...
im a strong gurl.. dats all i cn say. ahaks.
Strong ke?
hahh... itu yg kt tidak tahu. =P

okieh guys.. i will come back.. n update again!
=D

here's some extra notes... whether u're in love or not.... taken from aizzah blog!
haha if dun mind aizzah dear.

tanda2 cinta:
1. selalu rindu
2. selalu ckp baek2 dgn pasangan
3. ready to do anything for him/her
4. perubahan fizikal
- dr busuk jd wangi
- dr x pakai gel da start pakai da
5.perubahan emosi
- x sbr nk jmpe

Labels: life, university

Thursday, June 25, 2009 ♥ 10:51 PM

i just cant hold back you see.
nyahahaha.... askum guys...
damn now im addicted to Big bang-emotion... n also.... SNSD!! omg..
well i just like their songs.... not the girls... except for yoona.
im genie for you boy...
well, today im done with shopping for this coming saturday... registeration..
kkkhh~~~
hostel. hates. XD
but mayb later i'll adapt to it. nyuuu~
today went to the hair saloon~
dyed my hair black.. hahaha.. so bye bye to my highlights....
i dun mind actually... i look way younger with my current black hair... for me lh. XD
or to others... i look pretty the same. hahahahaha XD
neways, its cost me(but my mum paid lah kn.. hahah) rm55..
bye bye money...
neways... im so sick n tired listening people talking about transformers..
i want to watch..... *sigh*
hate it.
okie.. back to the shopping story...
well, my mum, auntie and my kazen... did refleksilogi.. n my mum did facial..
aigoo~
actually yesterday also.. they already did it... including me...
damn~ the refleksilogi is damn hurt.... cyesly... i mean... i just know dat i have mild asthma...
i was like ' heh, since when?' but its true... dat these days.. i always short of breath if im running or do heavy activities... im getting old. hahaha
den she do a lil massage at my knee... IT WAS SO DAMN PAINFUL! *cries*
cyesly... until now.. i cn feellll the painn~
hmhm..
yeah...
now im so sleepy~ hahaha...
mayb im goin to sleep after dis.

saat aku tertawa di atas semua..saat aku menangisi kesedihanku..aku ingin engkau selalu ada..aku ingin engkau,aku kenang..

for you.

Labels: bored, ego, life

Tuesday, June 23, 2009 ♥ 11:47 PM

huahahahaha.....
finally... i've change the layout....
dat layout... is okie.. but now.. need to change the new era of me..
haha.. nonsense. XD
neways.. i've already taken my sijil spm.
there's a few changes bout d skool.
the office have a better door. hahahah
i've met my class teacher.. puan sabarita... she's kinda shock seeing me... change perhaps..
XD
n den i've met pn zalma... im sure she dun even remember me.. haha..
the skool is just still the same.. hmhm.

butterscotch... reminds me of kmpp. dis is when all the matrics student, is just so crazy of this bread. u wanna know y? becoz its just simply delicious.. haha.. well, i still remember.. when i first bought the butterscotch, i dun mind the price when it comes to food.. but rm4.00 for dat much.. sure is expensive.. but i still dun care bout the price. its always sold out...

so everytime there's butterscotch available.... i would like... 'mak cik, sy book dua!'

den... rm8.. gone gone.. bye bye...

there r times dat i only ate the bread.. for dinner n breakfast... well lunch of coz i ate some rice... but den... sumtimes i just ate the butterscotch the whole day...

gyler izit? XD

but now...i dun even bother to eat it. hahaha...

so dis is my wacky frens. myra.daen.shaz.me.apel

it was fun.. a lots of memories with dem...

so everytime i eat butterscotch.. i remember kmpp. hahahah

n another thing i want to post... which i dun do in previous time... hahaha..

becoz im a shy kind of girl.. luv to keep it to herself.

i guess so. hahahah...

some people here... knows the person lah... especially si alia. XP

here it is.. mr mim mim. XD

its kinda funny... becoz i actually dun even know him in the first place. i heard it b4, from alia kot.. about his twin.. hahaha XD n from mimi.. i guess...

but i dun even care bout knowing who is dis person.. seriously.

hahhaha.. owh well.. we consider like met each other... online?

yeah.. it started from myspace. when he added me..

well, it just like normal people add u, den u approve. n would totally ignore it. hahaha XD

i just dunno.. well, he send me a message.

"err... thanks, coz approve...
aar... ape ek? aregato?? =p"

den my reply is. XD

"your welcome...
its arigato gozaimasu~
haha.."

dat was taken exactly from myspace message. hahahahah.. after reading it again... i wanted to laugh really loud! XD

well, the conversation started to grow.. ask dis n dat.... dat time was upu result n matrics result was out. so asking bout where to go n all. after asking dis n dat.... i decided to add him at ym.

after dat... me already enter matrics.. n both of us... in silence.

its all started when my dad give me the laptop n broadband.....

dat time is me actively on9... n lonely part of me... XD just clash with me ex....

den searching for partner is on. hahahaha...

he also dat time.... always on9... so.. chatting with him ... n all... but there's particular moment.. dat i need to study for my exam. i dunno why... dat time i need to 'wake up early' to study... i just give him my number... XD

den went to sleep... he actually call..

obviously... i just awake the moment he called.. den slept again... ever since.. we contact each other lah... during my ups n down. hurm..

funny funny~
nyahahaha... so dats MUHAMMAD SHAMIM BIN PADZIL. or mim mim =P

Labels: bored, kmpp, love, memories

♥ 10:14 PM

its just a random post... well..
i found sumthin interesting... at facebook... so.. y not me post it here... n tag my pwens!

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with d wedding plan!=) At the end, choose d people u want to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know about u!=)

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your wedding plan, tag d people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

1. how old are you?
19. last moment having a '1' infront.... nyuu

2. are you single?
nope.. =P

3. at what age do you think you'll get married?
planningnyer.... 24 or 25

4. do you think you'll marrying the person you are with now?
i have nooooooo idea... i hope so. =P if ada jodoh den go on lah... if not.. marry to another person den. nyhahahahaha

5. if not, who do you want to marry?
i want to marry with... a person.. looks like siwon or a bit like yunho..... simple lh... chinese look... hensem wan! XD

6. who will be your bridesmaid & bestman?
huhu.. let me see..
my bestiess.... yeah.. dats it!

7. do you want a garden/beach or traditional wedding?
i want the most traditional wedding~~ yeah.. ikut tradisi.....^^

8. where do you plan to go on honeymoon?
paris!!! itally~~~~~ aahh.. nice.. huhu

9. how many guests do you think you'll invite?
mayb..... 100+++++++? i dunnow..

10. will that include your exes?
yes yes...huhu..

11. how many layers of cake do you want?
no need many layers.... less then 3 is enoughh ^^

12. when do you want to get married, morning or evening?
morninggg~ huhuhu

13. name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding.
lagu kawen biasa d mainkn.. hahaha

14. do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon & fork? knife?
since its a traditional wedding..... dining also traditional... pkai tgn! XD

15. champagne or red wine?
air sirap! XD red gak kn?

16. honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
days after the wedding... huhu.. hang out with the family first... nyuuu~

17. money or household items?
money... at least later i cn buy the stuff wat i want..... XD

18. how many kids would you like to have?
i want at least 3.. haha

19. will you record your honeymoon in DVD/CD?
ye kot~~~~ i dunno.. hahahahaha

20. whose wedding plan would you like to know next?
alia, ainaa,maa,fatin qila, mimi. hahaha cpt cpt

Labels: bored

Monday, June 22, 2009 ♥ 6:46 PM

askum.
hai guys... sorry for my lazzziineesss..
=D
long time i dun even update my bloggyy~
curse the damn computer.
hahahah..
well, dis saturday.. im entering UITM.
huh, i dun even expect dat im enter UNIVERSITY YA'LLLL~
urgghh...
the nervousness. inside me...
u know~ just u have to start all over again... nya...
the process getting know new people AGAIN. which i wish i didn't go thru AGAIN.
eventho im a person who can adapt to surrounding really fast but still, u dunno wat kind of person u will come thru.
*sigh*
n u know wat... the course im taking.. is totally out of wat i've learn in matrics.
matriculation....... sains hayat= medic, pharmacies, etc medical related.
n i got computer sciences... well, i still learn m3 in matrics.. which i hate numbers. but now i have to dealing mostly numbers. insyaallah.. i have to work hard.
im scared. dats all i can say.

another problem dat i have to face is.....wat ur parents hope for you...
makes me felt so guilty... whether i can do it.. or the other way round..
"sumtymes feeling down will just push u up" -a quote from apel. XD
really.... i dunno bout it.... the confident in me... just fly away.... to lala land.
n dat iim being so near to 'mim mim' (tq alia... for the nickname =P)
i need to be more focused...
UWA~ nyesal pulak ambik uitm... XD

this week is gonna be a hectic week i guess...
need to prepare sum stuff. here n dat..
lucky my hse is consider near to shah alam... compare to my dear fren lynda.... which she have to go to kelantan.....wish u luck!
now.. all my matrics frens... hv thier own path...
hmhm.

kkhh~~!
medical check up~
x-ray..(kcian cell cell ku~mati~~)
sijil spm @ skool~
wat else..
plus a lot of stuff i need to buy... like bags. stationary.
money money money~

i guess dats all folks.

Labels: life, UPU

Thursday, April 30, 2009 ♥ 4:09 AM

owh well, i just remember my old skool days.
the days where i went to skool in the morning, first conversation is not about homework but about DBSK. "alia alia... tgk x video bla bla.." and we started laughing n fangirling screaming. hahaha.. those days.
Now i don't have the chance to follow their update that much.
ever since i entered to Matriculation, i've lost track about them and most of my years in matrics i've listening to indie band music.
Its not that i don't like it but not all of indie band songs i can accept it. I think my first Indie band music that i like is Mawar Khayalan by Laila's Lounge.
Mawar Khayalan is a very nice,smooth, dreamy kind of music which is my type of music.
My roomates are the people who just don't want to listen jpop or kpop type of peeps.
erm, can't force them to listen anyways. but there are some music that suddenly stuck in there mind.
Like DBSK Mirotic, you know the part, "i got you... under my skin.." hahaha..
yeah, that part.
For me DBSK give a big impact to asian music industries. i mean, most of asian girls knows DBSK and growing fan base..
Not only in asia but also through out the whole world. but cerrtain clan.. like the'jpop n kpop' people would know.
i just like MIROTIC so much. no matter there a lot of singles released by them... i just can't let go of mirotic out of my head. hahaha.
plus i got to make my friend Iznie, who doesn't kpop in the first place, like DBSK and... sorry alia.. but she like Changmin. hahaha...
well, i also started to like changmin... his real character reveal these days. and also their mirotic gag concert.. changmin is so unpredictable. dang. he is cute in dat video.
Neways, music really connects people.. eventhough you dun understand what they are saying in the first place.
hahaha
its time for me to sleep rite now...
its 5 oclock.
man..
headache already.. hahahaha..
owh.. to alia: you should take care of changmin... coz i think im starting to like changmin too... hahahaha XD

Labels: DBSK, music

♥ 3:52 AM

Well it's not far down to paradise
At least it's not for me
And if the wind is right you can sail away
And find tranquility
Oh the canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Baby believe me

It's not far to Never-Never-Land
No reason to pretend
And if the wind is right you can find the joy
Of innocence again
Oh the canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Baby believe me
Sailing takes me away
To where I've always heard it could be
Just a dream and a wind to carry me
Soon I will be free
Fantasy
It gets the best of me
When I'm sailing
All the world in a reverie
Every word is a symphony
Won't you believe me

It's not far back to sanity
At least it's not for me
And if the wind is right you can sail away
And find serenity
The canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Baby believe me

Sailing - Nsync

Labels: lyrics

♥ 2:58 AM

hai guys...
okie...onw thing i want to tell u guys...
everytime i want to update... den later.... i just switch off the computer... theres always sumthing up later.. hhahaha
okie den.. i just have to taip really fast den..
well, yesterday wasn't the best day ever....
very dull.. i cried until my eyes sore... n i got a headache after dat....
mixed feelings..
wanna know wats the mixed feelings?
here's the story...
i just cnt stand.. with my life changing expreince..
i just envy people who hv family... like me... its incomplete. yeah..
altho i always hang out with my mum.. n my dad goes to work..
but den..... everything turn upside down....
u know... when u all comfy with ur life... den suddenly the comfort zone dissapear..
n its normal... people like to see.. when a person's life.. suddenly drop.. into nobody
they would just... talk behind ur back n all..
well.. its happen to my life rite...
eventho they actually dun really intend to say it... but still its stab deep inside ur heart...
they are nice person to my life...
but becoz of dat... i hv to control.... myself...
which i cant help doin it... its like.. my normal daily life...
my mum kept on sounding me n all.
'emilia, u dun do dis..." dun do dat....
its not dat i dun understand they situation...
but.. i just dun like it.. i dun like it~~~~~~
plus.. here in kl... i hv nobody to talk with... at least... if i come thru dis situation... i hv anis or akmal... to talk to... den everything will be okie...
i stranded in dis world.... where u dun hv anything to do... nothing... u doin the same thing everyday... u cn just... be crazy... sooner or later... or depress mayb...
my emotional these days... is very unstable sumtimes....
to settle this emotional disorder.... i just cry.... later i'll be okie...
but.. i cnt do this like... forever....
n the main problem is...... i just dunno how to express my feelings... i would just keep it to myself.. n put 'no-problem-face' mask to everybody.....
altho.. i need sum1 to talk with....
i hv my mum... but again... i just dunno wat to say to her... plus i dun want her to worry
my mum have been thru a lot....
arghhhh.. everything is just not rite...........
i always pray to allah.. hoping for a better life thoo..

there r times.. i felt like i want to run awy from home... or kill myself...
but hahaha.... i lurve myself.. i cnt just end my life like.... dats wat i always think....
n i dunno where to run.. haha..

conclusion of the story: i hate my life rite now. here in kl. dats all. i need sumone 2 talk with. hmhm

Labels: life